can't find anything to do and the sickening awareness that i have to go back to my deathtrap of a school keeps rearing its ugly head. the thought of doing this for years to come is horrible, and it stares me in the face every day. People see the same faces and the same places every damn day, and yet they stay content. Do they not realise that they are getting nowhere, or am I just selfish for wanting more out of what I have? Either way, its unsettling to think about. I am disgusted to think that i may turn out the same way if i stay around this place. i just want out, thats all.
