Wake Up, Why Can't You Face Me (C'mon Now)
Don't Play Dead Cause Maybe (Just Maybe)
Someday I'll Walk Away And Say 'You Fucking Disappoint Me.'
Maybe You're Better Off This Way
A bit of a late-night update. I have nothing better to do. At the moment I'm trying to resist bashing my head in on my own desk because of the feeling of idiocy that is going through my mind all day. It gets to a point to where I get tired of looking into a mirror every morning because all I see is something devoid of a purpose. I can understand my situation... Handling it however is something completely different. It makes me wish I had never even tried from the start. I find it ironic as hell because when I don't try at something it just sits there until I finally do, and when I do it blows up in my face. I'm tired of trying. Do you understand?
You want to make things happen, make them happen your damn self. I'm tired of being kicked in the face.
Obviously it doesn't matter anyway, seeing as you've gone back. I told you not to do it in the first place, but you did. I told you I wasn't going to say a word even if you did. You did it anyway, and look what happened. I want YOU to be happy with whatever the hell you do because you're going to do it anyway. I don't understand why you ask for MY opinion when you know it already. And even after the fact you rub it back in my face and tell me things YOU KNOW I don't want to fucking hear. I'm starting to get tired of all the bullshit because it just keeps adding up. You want to know what I want? I want it all to just go the hell away. You take your happy ass and all your complaints to HIM. I'm not listening to you anymore because the only thing that comes out of that mouth is spiteful shit. You really think that's going to get you anywhere? You expect me to understand you when you do the things you do? I'm not the one telling people 'I love them' then jumping at the next best thing! You have so many people wrapped around your finger and you claim you have no fucking idea.
Open your eyes. I'm cutting my rope.
You can have them all. I don't care anymore. I don't want anymore. I don't want you, I don't want them, I don't even want myself. All I want is some time to relax so I can refrain from screaming or putting a hole in my wall, or other things... I want YOU to stop your bullshit because I. Give. Up.
-Shallow Hearts Are Those Pierced Easiest By A Vampire's Kiss-
Yours Maniacally.
