It's Too Late To Apologize
It's Too Late...
Long damn survey filled out for Kelso.
What is your name?: Abigail
Are you named after anyone?: From the Bible >_>
What's your screename?: hangingangel07
Would you name a child of yours after you?: No. I'm a little more creative than that.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Adam
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I'd keep my name
Are there any mispronunciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: YES. Abbey, or Abbie... It's just Abby, or to make it easy, AbZ.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: If I were married, no. If it were what it is now, yes.
Basics
Your gender:: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight
Single?: No
If not, do you want to be?: No
Birthdate:: May 7th
Your age:: 17
Age you act:: 19
Age you wish you were:: 23
Your height:: 5'4
Eye color:: Right: blue, Left: hazel
Happy with it?: Yes
Hair color:: Ash brown
Happy with it?: Yes
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Right
Your living arrangement:: Mom, Dad, LOTS of cats, horses, chickens, a dog, my snake
Your family:: I love them
Have any pets?: Cats and Lestat. I want to get some of those really ugly black goldfish SO bad.
Whats your job?: McDonald's
Piercings?: Ears
Tattoos?: Considering
Obsessions?: Him
Do you speak another language?: A little Spanish
Have a favorite quote?: Nothing good comes from staying with ordinary people.
Do you have a webpage?: Yes. Here, myspace, DA
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: Most of the time, yes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yes
Do you have any secrets?: Yes
Do you hate yourself?: From time to time
Do you like your handwriting?: Yeah, it's all scribbly
Do you have any bad habits?: Nail biting, self-destructive tendencies, wandering off in mid-sentence
What is the compliment you get from most people?: I love your hair
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: This Side Of Chaotic
What's your biggest fear?: Being unwanted, unloved, unappreciated. Not being good enough.
Can you sing?: I've been told that I can
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Nope.
Are you a loner?: Not so much anymore
What are your 1st priorities in life?: Survive, and make it worthwhile
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably, either that or we would hate each other.
Are you a daredevil?: From time to time.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I have a fear of losing my mind. I hate my paranoia.
Are you passive or aggressive?: Usually aggressive, but I can be both
Do you have a journal?: You're reading it.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength: I stand for my beliefs. Weakness: I doubt my self-worth
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Nothing that I think would be effective.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: In almost everything, except when it comes to dealing with Raymond.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: No. Regret is pointless.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Well, I'm not dead yet so I guess that's a yes.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: To give people a chance to be understood, and to hold my tongue.
What do you like the most about your body?: My eyes
And least?: Stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: Not necessarily good looking, but I know I'm not a troll.
Are you confident?: In many things
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Rein from Resident Evil
Are you perceived wrongly?: More often than not
Do You...
Smoke?: No
Do drugs?: No
Read the newspaper?: No.
Pray?: No
Go to church?: No
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Rarely
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No
Take walks in the rain?: Yes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Not unless it's needed
Drive?: Yes
Like to drive fast?: YES
Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: No
Hurt yourself?: Yes
Been out of the country?: No
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Raw oysters
Been in love?: Indeed
Done drugs?: Yes
Gone skinny dipping?: Yes
Had a medical emergency?: Yes
Had surgery?: No
Ran away from home?: Yes
Played strip poker?: No
Gotten beaten up?: Yes
Beaten someone up?: Yes
Been picked on?: Very much
Been on stage?: Yes
Slept outdoors?: Yes
Thought about suicide?: Yes, and attempted
Pulled an all nighter?: Definitely
If yes, what is your record?: A day and a half
Gone one day without food?: Yeah
Talked on the phone all night?: Yeah, with Josh when I was in 7th grade xD
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Yes
Slept all day?: Yeah
Killed someone?: Not yet
Made out with a stranger?: No
Had sex with a stranger?: NO
Thought you're going crazy?: A lot
Kissed the same sex?: Yeah, on a dare
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No
Been betrayed?: Of course
Had a dream that came true?: Yes, oddly enough
Broken the law?: Yes
Met a famous person?: Semi-famous
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yes
On purpose?: Yes
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: No
Stolen anything?: Yes
Been on radio/tv?: No, but newspaper
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes
Bungee jumped?: Not yet
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yeah. I kept seeing the same house... Just in different condition in every dream
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: It's possible
Miracles?: No
Astrology?: Sort of
Magic?: A little
God?: I believe in the possibility, but I'm not getting my hopes up
Satan?: No
Santa?: No
Ghosts?: Yes
Luck?: No
Love at first sight?: No
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: No
Witches?: Wicca, yes
Easter bunny?: No
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: No
Do you wish on stars?: No
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: No
Do you think God has a gender?: No
Do you believe in organized religion?: No
Where do you think we go when we die?: Wherever we choose.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Several Bi friends
Who is your bestest best friend?: I have a few
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Other than my mom, Raymond
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Things are only as bad as you make them
Your favourite inside joke?: As of recently, Critmus Cree
Thing you're picked on most about?: Being crazy
Who's your longest known friend?: Kendra
Newest?: Kelso
Shyest?: Becca
Funniest?: Kayla
Sweetest?: Kelso
Closest?: Kayla and Kelso
Weirdest?: Kendra
Smartest?: Becca
Ditziest?: Kayla
Friends you miss being close to the most?: TifA
Last person you talked to online?: Kelso
Who do you talk to most online?: Kelso, Milo
Who are you on the phone with most?: Kayla
Who do you trust most?: Raymond and Kayla
Who listens to your problems?: Kelso, Raymond, Kayla, TifA, Becca
Who do you fight most with?: None of them
Who's the nicest?: Kelso
Who's the most outgoing?: Kayla
Who's the best singer?: Becca and Kelso
Who's on your shit-list?: Marree
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Uhh, not that I recall
Who's your second family?: Kelso, Becca
Who's the loudest friend?: TifA
Do you trust others easily?: No
Who's house were you last at?: Kelso's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Raymond
Do your friends know you?: Yes
Friend that lives farthest away: Kendra
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: No
What do you find romantic?: Close, gentle, physical contact
Turn-on?: Possessiveness
Turn-off?: Being ordered
First kiss?: I consider my first REAL kiss to be from Raymond
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you feel?: Sorry for them
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them: Definitely
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: Nope, because I'd do it anyway
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Yes
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Rarely
What is best about the opposite sex?: Their physique and the way they move
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They're harder to read
What's the last present someone gave you?: 10 bucks from my mom
Are you in love?: Indeed
Do you consider your significant other hot?: YESSS
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Myself
You wanted to kill?: Lee
That you laughed at?: Opium
That laughed at you?: Teyana, Becca, Kayla, Opium
That turned you on?: Raymond
You went shopping with?: My mom
That broke your heart?: Raymond
To disappoint you?: Me
To ask you out?: Raymond
To make you cry? Me
To brighten up your day?: Kelso
That you thought about?: Raymond
You saw a movie with?: Raymond and Evan
You talked to on the phone?: Kayla
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Kelso
You saw?: Dad
You lost?: Myself
Right This Moment..
Are you going out?: No
Will it be with your significant other?: If only...
Or some random person?: No
What are you wearing right now?: Long-sleeved Spitfire shirt and pajama bottoms
Body part you're touching right now:: Knees
What are you worried about right now?: Being caught staying up
What book are you reading?: Nothing right now
What's on your mouse pad?: Green
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Nostalgic, sleepy, weary, lonely, loved
Are you bored?: No
Are you tired?: Yes
Are you talking to anyone online?: Kelso and Kem
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No
Are you lonely or content?: Lonely
Are you listening to music?: The Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down - Blue October
And finally, I am done.
Yours Maniacally.
By 
, at 8:38 PM
WHAT!!!!!!!!
I'M LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!
Boo... Well... What can I say about the other one...
You miss being close to me...
Well, It seems lately that you've had alot more to do and we never get the time to hang.
And I can't really help it that I have that CJ class.
So I know that I'm missing out on quite a bit at Lunch and other stuff...
Sorry..
Loves, TifA
Reading this actually makes me a bit sad.
I've messed up our friendship badly. I've said things I should have never said out of anger, and I acted poorly out of hurt. I wish I could take it all back. I really do. I know you will never forgive me, but I still feel the need to put my apologies in any ways. I'm really sorry Abby. I don't blame you for hating me, but I promise that if I could take it all back I would. I'd right the wrongs in which I have made. I should have never done those things, and the last time we have spoke...I should have respected you for trying to protect me from hurting me, but I was too blinded by the fact of what you said to Ethan. It had cut deeply, and I apologize for my reaction to it. I've been immature and foolish with those actions, and I wish to make ammends, but I doubt that will happen.
But either way...I am sorry.
I truly am.
And I love you Abby...I always will for you are like my older sister.
I wish you the best in life and hope for you to be successful.
By 
Encrypted_Secrets09, at 10:05 PM
>w< Yay, I'm so happy you finished it, Abby.
*nods* Yes, you make a LOT of sense to me.
=w= I feel like I know you better now.
<3 Kelso