Lonely Once The Drugs Are Done
And I Feel Like Dying
I Feel Like Dying
It's times like these, that I begin to realize how pointless so many things are.
How insignificant the things I do on a daily basis are.
When I come home, do nothing, and find myself alone with absolutely nothing to do, and no one to talk to.
Times like these when I realize that two close (and one being incredibly vital) parts of my life are farther away from me than I would like them to be...
And I realize there isn't a damn thing for me to do about it right now.
I usually refrain from letting the cobwebs clear and making these things focal points for my thoughts because I know that I only confront myself with my own futility. When it gets so quiet though, all I can hear is the static in the back of my mind, and it is given time to become clarified and manifest into solid concepts.
Solid, cold concepts, and they make my ribs strain.
I miss you, Raymond, if you ever read this anymore.
I miss you, Aaron, and the same goes to you.
I wish that there was some way for me to uproot every tiny strand of what is keeping me here, and simply go where you go, both of you.
Raymond, I wish I had your heartbeat to hear before I went to sleep at night.
I wish I could be there for you more than I am.
Aaron, I wish I had your smile to see and your laugh to hear when we find stupid things to joke about.
I wish I could see all of the wonderful things you are probably doing right now.
And I wish I had some way to forget that you are so far away from me.
I love you.
-Yours Maniacally.-
By 
, at 7:56 PM
Yes, I could say the same thing Kelso said.
There's nothing really knew that I talk about, its mainly the same old stuff with a few additions.
Or should I say the same old topic.
And you'll never have nothing to talk about...
There's always something that I haven't heard before.
It makes me sad that I can hang around you guys, and you'll say something or someone else will say something, and everyone knows what's being talked about exept me. Yes, it makes me feel left out and maked me feel like I don't know whats going on anymore...
It makes me sad.
No, Its not depressing cause it lets me know what the little monkeys in your head are doing.
You never were the one who didn't like knowing what was going on.
Starting to take its toll on me.
It may seem like I'm not around enough, but I do cherish the small time we do talk, like in class and all.
Okay, enough of my sorry words XD
Loves, TifA
Pain is just another part of life. We exist to survive, and surviving pain is a difficult feat. Remember, you're only seventeen years old. Aaron will never leave you, and Raymond is always within your reach.
I KNOW they both think about you every day: Aaron; his sweet little sister, and Raymond; his passionate significant other. You're impossible to replace, Abby. So don't think about that.
With them being far away so long, doesn't it make the reuniting even more exciting? Don't you just adore it? You know, they do too. It really makes their day to hear from you, Abby. You're the light of their lives. They really do love you, just as much as you love them.