I feel like I'm being hidden from: I show you everything, but I see less and less. I'm so tired. I'm so angry. I feel like an garbage; worthless and stupid. I feel like nothing I do is good enough for anything anyone anymore. Even myself. I feel like you don't trust me. I'm beginning to hate myself. And it's not just sometimes anymore.
Sometimes I really wish I could just do a fuck-ton of drugs and see if I wake up, or if anyone would miss me if I didn't. But I can't because I have so much to work towards. Military. Money. ...and indirectly, solitude.
I think no matter what I choose to do, I will always end up doing it alone. It's no one's fault but mine. I wouldn't stay around me if I had a choice, either. My entire family and anyone I've even been close to has gotten tired and walked away, so what's stopping you?
