I can only hope that -in time- you will begin to realize how pathetic and utterly stupid you`ve been acting. Then again, considering you`ve been given this much time without change, you probably never will.
As for me: I am learning. And I am forever being propelled by an infinite supply of burning anger and regret. If by no other means, I will always be moved forward with that compulsion. I am learning. There is no better motive -and nothing more constant- than misery.