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When I've hit the point of not wanting anyone to touch, talk to, or even look at me, you're the only person I can think of to keep me from just fading off into forever.
I wish I could talk to you, but even that's difficult for me.
My heart seems to be betraying me, and I don't mean that in some romantic, metaphorical sense.
I can literally feel my heart fuck up and trip over itself every once in a while; my pulse does whatever it wants, resulting in headaches, dizziness, and -lately- faintness.
To say I'm frightened would be an understatement.
I try not to freak out when it happens because it only makes it worse.
That's hard, too. Really hard.
